Tuesday, February 08, 2011
I think i've abandoned this place long enough to make this my secret hideout.
Lately, thoughts that have been running through my mind just made me not sure if he's the one for me. of course i've been holding back all of it. he's all in all, great. so much that i call him my dream guy all the time. but he certainly has a way to always make me feel like our equation is impossible to be balanced. he's none like any other ordinary boyfriend. he's usually not there, not unless i need him, that or i go to him. and i only believe that circumstances will deteriorate instead of the other way. No matter how hard i try, i know i can never turn the table around.
Comparing to past relationships, I've always had the upperhand. Not that I'm asking to be above, but now that I've found myself a really good chap, i'm never terribly good; only good enough perhaps.
Maybe I should just go. This soreness kicks in far too often, I don't even know where to hide anymore.
-heal your soul, you piece me up 02:04 :)
long awaited journey-to-come Monday, June 07, 2010
We can afford to be blind, but we can't afford to not breathe the air from all around this beautiful globe.
Singapore is simply too small to feed my curiosity - about the way this world works, about the way I should be myself.
-heal your soul, you piece me up 22:00 :)
Friday, May 28, 2010
Recently Ive been helping a friend to promote this electronic cigarette, branded 'Halo'.
So it all began when one of my friends was using it the other day we went out for dinner and drinks, and he took this out.
we saw smoke and the blue light at the tip of the cigarette when he inhaled it!
He said it was a smoke replacement device, similar to nicotine patches and gums to curb his addiction because he’s been saying over for a godzillion years that he is gonna quit smoking. And I think it's kinda working for him. Better air for us somemore. haha
According to his theory, if he can quit, GOOD FOR HIM. If he can use it to cut-down on cigarettes, better than nothing. If all else fails, he’s got one hell of a cool gadget to showoff. ha So i guess it's pretty cool..really like this whole concept. Besides, it's cheaper than smoking ciggs in the long run. So why not, right?
The website is http://www.triplehalo.com.sg/ if any of you all wanna check it out.
For yourself, a friend, or loved one!For cleaner air, prettier teeth, unrotting-whichever-body-part, fairer lungs!!
-heal your soul, you piece me up 01:59 :)
you have the power to change, if you try enough. Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Amidst all the mails, junk or not, I'm glad I filtered my mailbox today.
"hi qiyin jiejie,
thanks soooooo much for scanning my photo for me! you literally saved my life!
su ting(su yuan's sis)"
Just how sweet is that. Finally something that warmed my heart today.
A heavy-hearted day. Test tomorrow, and a project I haven't started brainstorming on.
you don't need no rest, you just need power.
-heal your soul, you piece me up 21:37 :)
Saturday, November 07, 2009
You know..I was supposed to be studying. I ended up doing this. And why is it that I keep feeling the one before adjustment is fatter than the one after? I didn't think lighting plays sucha big role. And how do I make the photo less noisy? I know right. Get a better camera. I WISHH...
Anyway I wanted to photoshop a different background. But...I got lazy. what the heck. Photoshopping's not even fun. It's plain tiresome. 
Due to some technical fault, my posts got deleted. So let me exclaim once more. I'm so going to Broadway Beng.... k nevermind. the excitement no longer lies...
I AM STILL SICK.
-heal your soul, you piece me up 01:46 :)
Milking Donkeys In-Progress. Friday, November 06, 2009
Nobody noticed I cut my hair!
Malvin didn't. Natalie didn't. Vernon didn't. Mum didn't. Dad didn't. Soohann didn't. In fact, nobody has mentioned thus far, "aye you cut your hair" to me. I wonder why. Don't my fringe look very different from before? I so prefer it being at this length now. Irritates me less.
For zebras' sake, I look youngerr.!
-heal your soul, you piece me up 00:16 :)
breathe in, breathe out.. Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Don't you think life is moving wayyy too fast?
I couldn't even feel my long wkend break, and tomorrow's school day again?
wow. I've not completed much, really. In terms of catching up in school work.
And I spent a whooping total of 300bucks ytd in town. wonderful.
Anyway, I feel really uncontrollable in my diet lately. Ive been eating non-stop. So I went for a swim this afternn after I woke up. Can't stop eating, then I gotta start moving.
Here's the thing; I finally recognise how to help push myself to work harder. My theory is that, I'm not one whom you pile a whole chunk of target for me to achieve and I'll work towards them. On the contrary, I get very turned off. What I'm gona do is to aim really low, and do more bit by bit.
Say my swim today, I aimed for a quick 10laps. I ended up completing a quick 20laps without any mind struggle. By lowering my expectations, I feel good about achieving them, then I do more to feel even better.
Sometimes I feel like I'm suffocating. I want to slow down so that I can have more time to do more things. Time management? c'mon. I suck at that!
Ive been forgetting things now and then. An organiser really ain't much of a help. I need pig's brains, almond and sardines.
Hmm. minus the first.
okay, off to meet the nic and kr for dinner!
Ive to be back for tutorial and....ok, not gona target more. Prolly won't even be able to complete a tutorial because Ive to read up the whole chapter before I can attempt. freak.
-heal your soul, you piece me up 17:26 :)
Friday, October 16, 2009
I could have flown to Hongkong or anywhere nearby for a short holiday last night, and be back next tuesday. How fantabulous right!
No school till next wed. Loveeee it.
But well, i am covered with 2 more assignments, 4 more tutorials. Plus I'm getting a new proj next week.
Since when were school days this stressful?
Just finished reading a book, and restored my computer from all the junk programs I downloaded the last 2 nights.
Am pretty hesitant about starting a new book. Because I think I'm gona take a long while to finish it, just as long as I took for this book.
Think I took 3weeks. Not to mention that it was a simple one. -.-
Oh, and did I mention? I baked the most successful cheesecake ever last month. Am so so so proud of it.
Terminate that procrastination
Im gon complete one tutorial before heading out.
-heal your soul, you piece me up 14:14 :)
Tuesday, October 06, 2009
I was reminded that I own a blog.
Yes, totally went off my mind for quite a long period of time.
Timbre @substation once again
Yeah, was busy at work then school lately. Plus I haven't got the diligence to bring my cam out for photos.
Marina Barrage
Our first Mario jump.
Had loadsa fun playing with the cam that night. And how everyone at the field of marina barrage laughed like mad when one guy went.."AHH!! LA BI XIAO XING DUAN LE!!!" he was yelling at the top of his voice because his crayon shinchan kite broke. how cute. All were staring blankly as his kite dive down towards the waters, but they were lucky enough to find the wind bringing it up again. And how Jane Khan encouraged TK to speed (3-4traffic police we spotted immediately after), then her next attempt to make him toss a lightstick into the waters from the viewing field when the patrolling police was walking towards us. haha she's a bad peer!
-heal your soul, you piece me up 01:30 :)
NoLessThanNothing.IHaveYouAllAndIt'sGoodEnough Tuesday, September 01, 2009
I had the most fabulous birthday celebrations this year! My heart were filled with sincere grins and a truckload of love.
Thank you all for being so sweet! And I thank god for what I received.
Cherished and well-contained!
xoxo
Qiyin
-heal your soul, you piece me up 23:24 :)
Sunday, August 16, 2009
DADDY GAVE ME $200 CASH VOUCHER TO SHOP AT TAKA AS MY BDAY GIFT! YAY!
But well....he got it from his company's D&D lucky draw. -___-"
Nevermind. I'm still really excited!
Im thinking $200 should be able to feed me a large longchomp or a new agnes b for school! But a longchomp will only cost me less than $190+..so maybe not.
(yes, i am a miser here. i do not wish to waste that few bucks. But hey, wealthy people are always bald and stingy. At least I'm half there y'know..)
Oh the not-that-fantastic thing is, I won't have an excuse to make him buy me a Lomo cam for my bday,can I? Nah. I shan't. Maybe I'll just ask for a supp card. And I'll sign for a lomo cam with that. HAHA. just kidding!
Batam on 22nd-23rd! Please don't say that I'm rich. I know this is the 3rd trip within 3mths. Since it is so, you should have all the reasons to think that I am gona be really broke after this trip. I haven't worked much this holiday.
So yes, I am shamelessly impoverished!
Rui called me and told me about the bday celebration we should have together. Sounds like a lot of fun. And I'm going to do blood donation tomorrow. I'm afraid of needles, but lets just put it as I'm doing a really small, good deed. (:
-heal your soul, you piece me up 01:29 :)
Thursday, August 06, 2009
Perhaps you'll always think that you've gotten over something that used to be so very important to you, but you haven't in deep.
The wrench in my heart when I heard the song 'No Air' by Chris Brown and Jordin Sparks was fucktastic.
Although it didn't drill tears, it's wrong to even feel that way. Not something that falls within my expectation.
Over and over again, I deliberated the song to play on. And I was numbed at last.
What was I reminiscing?
The lost in faith yet unwillingness to let go at stupidity.
The lonely wakeboarding days, when I watched him and couldn't do anything about it. I finally know what it stood by "so near, yet so far".
The days in awe and hope that got smacked right back in my face.
Then came the times when the other him came along and reminded me how I ought to have lived my life right.
"Tell me how I'm supposed to live with no air. Can't breathe, can't live with no air.."
You may like to think this is another emo post, but if I never faced this, I'll never find out that this time, I have truly recovered from it. Congratulate me, mankind.
Read through all the old posts. Deleted them all.
That's all thats left. Nothing much.
-heal your soul, you piece me up 21:10 :)
Wednesday, August 05, 2009
Lesson learnt. To keep my lips sealed in case I invite mockery again.
Been busy. And even though I'm exhausted. I must say that I enjoy what's keeping me busy lately. Haven't been leading a fanciful lifestyle, but I'm really contented for the time being.
I have a simple wish right now:
To enjoy dinner at home tomorrow.
And I'm gona make it happen.
Toast to that.
-heal your soul, you piece me up 00:02 :)
Friday, July 31, 2009
I wana pick up photography!!!
Wish I can afford one too. But I decided to get a lomo one of these days instead. It's a cheaper source to cool funky shots. (:
Anyway, taiwan was pretty fun. We eat and shop everyday. So we kinda de-boosted Sg's GDP a little by way overspending on top of my budget. haha And we didn't manage to try the duck tongues. ):
Met the dudes for 'Public Enemies'. GOOD SHOW! Go catch it. Am gona catch Harry Potter and Hangover soon
And I finally had Quiznos Sub! mineee! 
*edited: It can't possibly be and I won't let Vernon secretly be happy about my wrong expression! *
Vernon stumped me *with by gulping this 12" long **sub** all by himself.
** double edited! because.......
Vernon: STILL SOUNDS WRONG!! just that now it makes me look like a dirty gay slut. **
And sethalite who claims he doesn't wants to be in the photo but is secretly posing for it. Think I don't know..... -.- tsks
I actually still prefer Subway although Quiznos is really quite good and as affordable as Subway. Guess I just like the selection of ingredients that Quiznos don't provide. Vernon and I wanted to ask where Fareast Sq was as we weren't sure which building it was. Then this women who works at Toastbox told us she didn't know where Fareast Sq was. When we found it some 2 minutes later, we realised Fareast Sq was approx less than 10m, in front of Toastbox itself. -_-" Ok. I shouldn't laugh at her. Im just as bimbotic as her at times.. or worse. Life sucks. haha
Alright. Sleeping time!
-heal your soul, you piece me up 01:37 :)
Friday, July 17, 2009
The old smiles that you never want to erase.
An old game, but you never get sick of it.
Blur lion is going to Korea for exchange. Am so gona miss her miss her miss her!!
05/01/2010
I'll see you then.
-heal your soul, you piece me up 00:13 :)
Thursday, July 16, 2009
Lovers Friends Flings Enemies
Balance the past, the present and the future.
"When you find love, you don't have to ask if it is love. It's like you only ask if you're dreaming when you're dreaming. You don't actually ask yourself that when you're awake."
Work has been tiring thus far. I wonder how long I can hold on for.
2 more days of work before I take a break for my taiwan trip.
Nothing in my life has been enticing or attractive. But I sure enjoy nights of chilling out with my gays dudes. *aha You guys rock!*
-heal your soul, you piece me up 01:17 :)
Monday, July 13, 2009
I have a sudden craving for subway. NOW.
noo..
Did you know that retainers act like diet pills?
Well, you can't eat with them on. So in order to eat, you got to spit out your retainers (at the washroom) and gargle and gargle and gargle before and after you eat. So that sucks, and pretty much pisses me from eating at times. At least I resisted buying a whole chunk of snacks. But well, it never really stops a glutton like me. And I'm sticking to normal meals now that I'm working. I can never understand how I managed to survive eating so much in the past.. As you should know, I'm the type who puts on weight even from eating 3 normal meals per day w/o side snacks. (oh fuck. I just did it today.) Perhaps I was a skinny bitch my past life who prayed everyday to be plump my next life ay.. FATS CRUELTY. Darn!
So anyway, I finally caught transformers yesterday with zhenhui! We had ichiban sushi at hougang mall (all-time favourite!) before the show. And I kept asking him to watch big bang theory with me on my itouch but he refused to. WELL, THATS HIS LOSS! ha
Im thinking..if I should bring my laptop to Taiwan. It's damn heavy..so it's probably gona be a huge burden to me. But I'm kind of the type who itches from not using the comp for a day. And I wana watch shows in the hotel and on the plane. If I were to rip all the shows into mp4 and transfer them into my itouch. thats gona turn me into a gray stone seriously. But well..I guess I shall just go light, and live w/o my laptop for 8days. Finally tugged the luggage into my room. But it's not progressing from there. haha
And..subway melt...Im actually craving for ham, cheese and tuna! Yum dum dum.
-heal your soul, you piece me up 23:19 :)
Friday, July 10, 2009
Don't reach out for hearts that don't belong..
-heal your soul, you piece me up 19:59 :)
Saturday, July 04, 2009
Fuckkk..Blogger super won't give face can. Grr.
So 5 pictures for now till they do some self-reflections! =/
Anyway I had loads of fun over there in Australia! I'll venture into other parts of it the next time. I went casino for the first time in my life and won $26o! my dad won...um $26.40 out of $90million aussie dollar lotto. haha well, it's better than nothing! We met a racist cum menopausing woman. And not forgetting that we met handsome road-pavers to this awesomely cute pizza boy. haha
All credits to my cousins who made this trip oh so fun! My childhood would never have been a memorable one without them..or rather, it's not just gona be childhood! Many many things I can tell..but lets just confine it to thus short.
When Im there, I miss Singapore. But when Im back...I really really miss being there.
Welcome to Taiwan in 2weeks' time!!!
-heal your soul, you piece me up 00:02 :)
Thursday, June 25, 2009
4am in the morning here, I am left with less than twelve hours, but I am not done packing. Neither am I feeling the anticipation nor excitement yet. I suppose it's cos time is really passing so quick that I can hardly feel it coming. I will feel it soon. I just need to smell the airport. Love that specific scent of the airport. Just got back home. And rui is still the sameeee. I had vegetarian food with her. haha Don't ever make me a permanent vegetarian. I will kill you, then myself. tsk. Thinking of a Bali weekend trip sometime in July. ((:
Anyway, I was just thinking.. How is it that some people can say what they don't mean, and yet not lying at the same time? I couldn't find a satisfying answer.
Time for bed. Gona have to wake up slight earlier to finish up packing. I hate cold countries, because I don't have a wide selection of clothes to choose from. =/
But I know Im gona have a hell lotta fun there. hee
I'll be back!
-heal your soul, you piece me up 04:06 :)
